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Healing the Original Wound

Posted on: December 17th, 2011 by Rachel Goodwin

Lady Sarah

From a shamanic journey work that I did in 2010;

“First of all I was shown the connexion to God – there is a golden orb/ light up in the cosmos and I am connected to it and it feels great! (this is my awareness of being an individuated consciousness but still one with the Divine)

Then there is a gradual disconnexion as I feel myself descending. (my awareness of oneness with the Divine is growing less and less as I descend into matter)

Then I am down here at the bottom and all that lovely connexion is gone. (now I’ve come onto the earth plane and inside me all is empty and cold and dark, there is nothing, just nothing, it’s all gone)

Then a gradual re-awakening of love as I find things to love around me, people, things, places, (and that feels better, what a relief, like coming out of the cold and into the warm) but then distress coming in at the realisation of always losing these things, never being able to hold onto them (and all the grief and loss that goes with this, oh God, what pain) and with this, the total and absolute realisation of being able (in truth & reality) to hold onto nothing, a gradual returning of my face towards Divinity. (and back to the light within)

This time, the return to the light within, is through my consciousness and using my intent and I am shown that this is the way to re-connect to the Divine.

No mystery, no magick, just so!”

Later on in another journeywork, I applied healing salve I had been given to the wound, and discovered that underneath the initial feelings of emptiness that came with the first descent into matter and separation from the Divine, underneath this nothingness, was accompanying rage, grief, howling loss, and extreme shock.

The pain of being separated from the Divine was so great, that it sent the conscious into unconsciousness, (the shock was so shockingly shocking as to be enough to send any form of consciousness into an instant faint back into the comforting deep sleep of the unconscious) and so the pain lumbers in the depths of the subconscious mind, rearing it’s head as an occasional illness, and whenever true loss and grief is felt, so it is awakened then.
This terrible wound to the newly born ego, in it’s first descent into matter, is too great to be actually felt on that initial experience, and so it slumbers on in the darkest depths of our subconscious minds, only being awoken from time to time, by the (resonating emotions of) grief and loss, until we have separation & abandonment until we have sufficiently matured into the light, and brought our healing skills to such a range that we might attempt to heal this greatest wound, our deepest pain.
Sometimes when we have reached this level of development, then comes into our lives our twin flames, for us to experience this oneness at a soul level even while we are in our physical bodies ( we feel at one, not just in our minds and bodies, but in our hearts and most of all, in our souls – because we have found the other half of our soul, and we are complete, what love, what joy) but then only for them to be separated from us again. (what pain, what grief, what loss and abandonment, what rage)
All of the loss and abandonment in our lives helps us to experience feeling ‘torn apart’ , and echoes our original loss ( which was the loss of our conscious awareness of our connexion to the Divine; because of course, we have never lost God, just that it seems so to our conscious selves that are struggling to become consciously God aware whilst in physical matter)
It allows us to come the closest we can at this stage to experiencing the original trauma of feeling separate from God.
Were we to already experience the actual feelings from the original event, all in one go, we would fall immediately into unconsciousness, the trauma being too great to process. Experiencing loss in our lives allows us to start to move towards the original pain, rage, shock that we felt, and allows it to start to be ventilated a little from our system.

The gifts that we develop in response to this pain are gifts of compassion, love and healing.
We learn that there is no wound so great that it cannot be healed by the love of Divine Mother/ Father God (who is ourSelves).

As the trauma is healed/ uncovered/ brought into the light, so can our God consciousness, which so far has been buried underneath the trauma, once again rise up from it’s slumbers in the depths and come into the light, evoking the memory and consciousness of who we truly are.

And so slowly by slowly, through our individual healing journeys, can all the material repressed in the subconscious be dealt with and processed.

For example, in meditation, we can allow ourSelves (our God consciousness/ the observer in the meditation) to observe everything that comes up from the subconscious.
And in that observing, we can bring our God consciousness (the light) to our repressed material, such as feelings/thoughts that pop up from the subconscious( the dark), bringing healing and uncovering day by day.
Eventually all of the material is processed, and then one day there is no more left that is repressed, and out pops the God consciousness, buried no more!

But we can also use all of our modern day skills that we have learnt and developed and bring those to bear in the same way.

Etheric Healing Temple in Chalice Hill, Glastonbury!

Posted on: December 17th, 2011 by Rachel Goodwin

GlastonburyYou can listen to an intro to the energies in the Chalice Hill Temple here

This is just a field on top of Chalice Hill right?

I’ve just got back from Glastonbury, where I was shown this etheric healing temple for the second time.
The entrance is through a portal on the top of the hill, in the field that you can see in the photo above.
You can feel the energy most strongly by walking along a footpath from Dod’s Rd:-

If you climb just up the footpath past the ashram and then walk to the field on the right, and stand by the barbed wire fence there, there are two big trees.
The portal/vortex is in between the two, but further into the field.
This beautiful energy from this vortex rolls down the hill towards the Abbey – it’s just SO Divine Feminine!

From the Tor, you can see it’s the field on top of Chalice Hill, and me and my friend could see there’s a big shape growing there naturally in the grass that looks like a heart!! Exactly where the portal is!

When I was ‘shown’ the temple for the first time, I was experiencing a strong compulsion to go and stand on the portal, and was getting really frustrated as it’s clearly private property, and I didn’t want to trespass.
Then I realised that I didn’t need to physically do it (after all, I’ve connected to the heart of the Tor, which is under the ground, and I did it all from the ‘stone egg’).

So I let myself be drawn to a spot (which was the place I mentioned by the fence above) and then did the rest energetically.
First I saw the earth opening up at the portal, and a shaft going down (like a well).
At the bottom was Mary Magdalene, & Sarah was there too, and there was a ‘healing table’, which was a grey slab of stone.
We talked for a while, and they told me that they were going to do some healing work with a piece of me that was very wounded, so that they needed some time…
Could I come back another time, they asked, and retrieve the piece of myself?!

Which is what I did today! (After a year or so)
I went back to the same place, and saw the temple opening, and golden light radiating out.
The pieces of me were completely healed, and flew jubiliantly back towards me!
I saw a white pegasus horse with wings flying into me, going in at the heart centre, and a heart made up from alternate layers of yellow and pink – also with wings, going into my third eye!
I was all back together again!
And then the temple closed again, but I knew the support of the angels and the holy family stayed with me.
It was/ is a lovely feeling.

The temple, is I think, a woman’s temple.
Not meaning that it’s only women that are healed, not at all, (all things can be brought for healing here).
Only that the healing is done through the Divine Feminine, so it’s a Divine Feminine/ Goddess Healing temple, and Mary Magdalene presides over it.
Sarah is there too, but her mother is the presiding force. Here, Sarah assists as the daughter.

It feels to me that there was a temple here like this in Atlantean times, and I also feel that there will be a temple like this here once again further into the future.
For now, we can use it in the etheric realms, we can ask to go there in our sleep, and we can go there in mediation/ trance.
I’m being given that I will use it in my healing work when I’m guided, and I’m also being asked to create an audio healing meditation, which I’ll make available so people can go there and receive healing.

Also by working more with it, I’ll find out more information about the temple and how to work with it’s healing energies….
I have another photo on my laptop which is in Denmark just now, ( I only travel with my netbook) and that’s got something more of the energies that I’m talking about, so I’ll use that aswell when I get back later on in November…
These are exciting times….Grace is all around us, and Sarah is here to work with us.

Anyway, I just wanted to share all this, as it’s been such an exciting thing to experience, and can’t wait to hear about others experiencing it too!!
Lots of blessings,

Sarah on all sides!!

Posted on: December 17th, 2011 by Rachel Goodwin


We’re into the third week now of our course ‘Sarah and healing our self-esteem’, and what a time it has been!
We’ve been working with Sarah’s symbol, doing affirmations for self-esteem, chants for self-worth, prayers, and exercises for forgiveness. I’ve been working away at the programme along with the rest of the group, and Sarah has been overlighting all of our healing processes with her divine presence. So much has been, and is being ‘lifted’ from us in the group, and I feel I’m really experiencing divine grace in action…

Each week, I’ve been sending out Sarah’s ‘blessings’ to the group (this is a way of transmitting Sarah’s energy), and each time it’s been completely different but had a definite theme each time; gentle grace, strength and this was one week’s email out to the group:


“Dear all, last nights blessing had a very different feel about it. Last week was gentle and full of grace, this week it was focused and strong. There was such strength there, it was amazingly and awesomely strong!
To me it felt like energy to wake us up to just how powerful we are, I really felt that. (so the strength is what is inside us)
I can’t say my mind has caught up with it yet, but I usually find with these things, that the energy comes first and then everything else gets dragged along with it.
So expect some changes this week! (the wind of change is in the air!!)
Of course I know with the blessings, that we all receive what we need…”

And it has been an honour to behold, the power and strength, grace and beauty coming through to each member of the group, as we all let go of what we no longer need, and find all of these wonderful qualities inside ourselves!!

Last week we did a forgiveness exercise, and after I had this email from a lady called Ginny in the group,

“Something quite magical happened to me after I’d finished the Forgiveness exercise on Saturday! The doorbell rang and there was my 90 year old neighbour standing on the doorstep, a lovely guy called Arthur. He bowed and then presented me with a beautiful light pink rose, just the colour of the heart chakra! He’s never done anything like this before and the timing was just perfect! The rose was so beautiful I took a photo.” (which is the photo at top of blog)

I loved the synchronicity of this, and I noticed straight away the three buds – Sarah often shows herself in 3’s as she holds the energy of the threefoldflame; you can see a channelling which talks about this

…So Sarah’s energy has been overlighting our work, showing her presence in special ways.
And of course, working with self-esteem can mean some difficult things come up, but Sarah’s energy seeps through everything, so her light and joy emerges in the darkest of times!!

This has shown itself in the 1:1 sessions each person has had with me and Sarah, and we have removed ancient blocks, healed our inner children, loved ourselves and brought back parts of our souls and re-membered our Divine Selves.
But no matter how difficult and dark some of the issues have been that have come up, the gentle love, the Divine grace, the brightness of ourSelves, the forgiveness in understanding; in the face of these gifts, the darkness becomes something to be held and loved once again, bearable in it’s wholeness. Sarah holds the light and the dark within unity consciousness; you can see more about this!_Why_Sarah_is_here_and_what_she_

So with each session comes a profound joy for me, as I experience Sarah; her love and beautiful light and her grounded and womanly wisdom.
She knows what it is to be human, and has a special joy and delight in helping us to empower ourselves.
Her whole presence empowers, and helps us to be more of who we are!

The learning for me is very deep too, as I see the strength, power and wisdom in others, so I see it in myself, and have realised that I have much to value in myself, even though I am currently living and moving amongst many that have masters degrees as a minimum qualification, and Phd’s coming out of their ears (and here’s me with my little diplomas in nursing and hypnotherapy!)

So this has been my biggest realisation on this self-esteem course so far, that like Sarah, it too is my joy to be able to facilitate greater self-esteem in others, and bring about greater self-empowerment.
That the gifts I have been given to tune into another’s awareness and energy body, and sense there the issues, that need healing brought to them, and the ability I have to hold Sarah’s energy around us, as we complete this process; that now is the time for me to honour and appreciate them – as all of the group are finding what is special within them, finding their strength, so I am too.

We are finding ourSelves!

And this is perhaps where our self-esteem comes from I think, seeing what is already there, seeing the truth, seeing our own beauty.
Seeing ourSelves.

And that was the message for me, in the rose above, and that’s what I wrote to Ginny,

“and Sarah is on all sides, (in the 3 buds) and I just want to point out one more time, that that beautiful rose in the centre
– IS YOU!!”

If you would like a one-to-one session with myself and Sarah working on your self-esteen, I’m offering a 10% discount until the end of October, to book, you can find my contact details